6 weeks at the new job

Just dropping in to say hi, my lovelies. I’m still alive and doing rather well at the moment.

I’ve passed my 6 week probation at work, and my line manager is really happy with how quickly I’m picking things up. The work’s getting interesting as the two big projects I’m working on are gathering steam. The people I’m working with in the office are great and I have a good line manager for the first time. It’s such a change to struggling under my former PhD supervisor.

I’m getting used to the London commute, but it’s two hours each way which means I’m spending 20 hours a week commuting. It’s brutal and means I have very little free time at home during the week. By the time I walk in the door all I want is to eat instant food that requires no effort on my part, say hello to my Squishy,  and fall into bed. I do technically have the time on my commute all to myself but there’s hardly any 3G signal in Kent so I can’t read the internet on my phone! Arghhh! Also, my tiny phone screen is not the best thing to attempt to write blog posts on, which is partly why I’ve hardly been here the last two months.

That, and I have no idea what the focus for my blog should be any more. I don’t have the trauma of my PhD to resolve through the written word, and while I’m sure I will think about it and it’s on-going effects  on occasion, it’s not so burning an issue that I must write about it now. Which, tbh, is what drove the posts I felt most on fire about when writing.

So, this blog is going on a hiatus for the time being.

Which makes me kind of sad as WordPress informed me this week that it has been three years since I commandeered this domain. I’m still reblogging stuff I find pretty/amusing/interesting on Tumblr but again, now that I don’t have hours and hours of my day to burn, plus the crappiness of the internet interface on windows phone/internet explorer (which also hinders my WordPress usage after all their crappy “improvements”!), means that my queue is much shorter than it was when I was denying the horrors of my PhD and unemployment.

Love to you all, and see you around.

I’ll drop in once a month or so between now and Christmas, so I won’t be gone completely, and you can always email me (see my About page).


Still alive!

Just a quick post to say Hi!

I’m moving house today – moving in with Squishy for the first time! No more long distance for us! Finally!

I’ve been busy with work and packing and that sort of thing. I should also be starting on my corrections next week and I really, really need to sort out my CV/resumé.

I will also admit that I’m at a bit of a loss as to what to write about here. I’ve spent two long years hating on the PhD process and what it’s done to my mental health but it’s not actively an issue right now. The sources of pressure are significantly reduced and at a distance. I’m still a bit anxious about working through my corrections and working on the paper with my collaborators but these tasks feel eminently achieveable. Finding the time to focus on them while also job hunting and moving house has been difficult but I’m sure I can figure it out.

Red dahlia against a brick wall

Red Dahlia – CC NessieMonster

I’m burned out on the whole feminist ranting about sexism thing too. I haven’t read anything recently that’s shattered my world view and it all seems a bit samey topic-wise. Reading about how women get screwed over in career advancement, in the home, in politics and in health matters is just depressing. Yes, I am well aware the world is full of shocking, hurtful things and that many people really suffer from it, thanks. Just reading the word “r*pe” in a headline is enough to make my stomach sink and frankly, I don’t need to put myself through that anymore. I’m much more at peace with my own trauma history than I was a few years ago. It still affects me from time to time but I mostly know where those tripwires are and for the most part I can talk it through with Squishy if it’s actively affecting our sex life in the moment. Continue reading